Ketika menulis entri ini, hati aku sangat-sangat sakit. Sudah lebih dua minggu sakit. Aku cuba pujuk hati, tetapi pujukanku seperti tidak berhasil. Aku masih teringat-ingatkan dia. Apabila dia minta aku untuk melupakan dirinya kerna dia bakal melupakan diriku, aku terkedu. Akhirnya, cerita kami berdua berhenti. Tanpa aku rela. Namun, mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik semua ini. Cuma aku belum nampak lagi cahaya hikmah itu. Penjelasannya seperti sudah disusun. Seperti sebuah drama swasta. Dan aku menjadi lab rat nya. Aku masih cuba menyembuhkan hati ini. Sakit, perit. Semua ada.
Salah aku kerna aku terlalu menyayanginya. Percintaan jarak jauh, tidak sesuai untuk kami agaknya.
Semoga Allah tabahkan hatiku dalam mengharungi kehidupan ini. Ameen.
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dilla, this may seem like the end of the world right now but it's not. it's the beginning of a new life, a new kind of happiness. and here, in this new life, insyaAllah u'll find a better person. u may not know it now, but one day, u will be thankful that this happened. i was like u before this. i felt betrayed and broken-hearted. but i survived. and i'm stronger because of that. and the replacement i got is much, much, much better than the one i lost. n if i should ever lose this replacement (nauzubillah, but we never know what might happen), i know Allah would replace it with yet another better replacement. all we need to do is be patient and pray really hard. i know u are strong, so u can get through this!
so, it's okay to cry and be sad. it's therapeutic. but at one point, we all have to move on. so will u, okay?
=D
I am trying my best to be stronger than before. I just need more time to heal the wound.
May Allah help me in this battle of nonsense.
Thank you, Amrah. Thank you friends for your concern.
I Love You.